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She had but a few moments at her command in which to devise an issue
out of these tangled meshes, which she had woven round the man she
loved.

Merlin and his men would return anon. The comedy could not be kept up
through another visit from them, and while the compromising letter-case
remained in Déroulède's private study he was in imminent danger at the
hands of his enemy.

She thought for a moment of concealing the case about her person, but a
second's reflection showed her the futility of such a move. She had
not seen the papers themselves; any one of them might be an absolute
proof of Déroulède's guilt; the correspondence might be in his handwriting.

If Merlin, furious, baffled, vicious, were to order her to be searched!
The horror of the indignity made her shudder, but she would have
submitted to that, if thereby she could have saved Déroulède. But of this
she could not be sure until after she had looked through the papers,
and this she had not the time to do.

Her first and greatest idea was to get out of this room, his private
study, with the compromising papers. Not a trace of them must be found
here, if he were to remain beyond suspicion.

She rose from the sofa, and peeped through the door. The hall was now
deserted; from the left wing of the house, on the floor above, the
heavy footsteps of the soldiers and Merlin's occasional brutish laugh
could be distinctly heard.

Juliette listened for a moment, trying to understand what was
happening. Yes; they had all gone to Déroulède's bedroom, which was on the
extreme left, at the end of the first-floor landing. There might be
just time to accomplish what she had now resolved to do.

As best she could, she dit the bulky leather case in the folds of her
skirt. It was literally neck or nothing now. If she were caught on
the stairs by one of the men nothing could save her or - possibly -
Déroulède.

At anyrate, by remaining where she was, by leaving the events to shape
themselves, discovery was absolutely certain. She chose to take the
risk.

She slipped noiselessly out of the room and up the great oak stairs.
Merlin and his men, busy with their search in Déroulède's bedroom, took no
heed of what was going on behind them; Juliette arrived on the landing,
and turned sharply to her right, running noiselessly along the tick
Aubusson carpet, and thence quickly to her own room.

All this had taken less than a minute to accomplish. The very next
moment she heard Merlin's voice ordering one of his men to stand at
attention on the landing, but by that time she was safe inside her
room. She closed the door noiselessly.

Pétronelle, who had been busy all the afternoon packing up her young
mistress' things, had fallen asleep in an arm-chair. Unconscious of
the terrible events which were rapidly succeeding each other in the
house, the worthy old soul was snoring peaceably, with her hands
complacently folded on her ample bosom.

Juliette, for the moment, took no notice of her. As quickly and as
dexterously as she could, she was tearing open the heavy leather case
with a sharp pair of scissors, and very soon its contents were
scattered before her on the table.

One glance at them was sufficient to convince her that most of the
papers would undoubtedly, if found, send Déroulède to the guillotine. Most
of the correspondence was in the Citizen-Deputy's handwriting. She
had, of course, no time to examine it more closely, but instinct
naturally told her that it was of a highly compromising character.

She gathered the papers up into a heap, tearing some of them up into
strips; then she spread them out upon the ash-pan in front of the large
earthenware stove, which stood in a corner of the room.

Unfortunately, this was a hot day in August. Her task would have been
far easier if she had wished to destroy a bundle of papers in the depth
of winter, when there was a good fire burning in the stove.

But her purpose was firm and her incentive, the greatest that has ever
spurred mankind to heroism.

Regardless of any consequences to herself, she had but the one object
in view, to save Déroulède at all costs.

On the wall facing her bed, and immediately above a velvet-covered
prie-dieu, there was a small figure of the Virgin and Child - one of
those quaintly pretty devices for holding holy water, which the
reverent superstition of the past century rendered a necessary adjunct
of every girl's room.

In front of the figure a small lamp was kept perpetually burning. This
Juliette now took between her fingers, carefully, lest the tiny flame
should die out. First she poured the oil over the fragments of paper
in the ash-pan, then with the wick she set fire to the whole
compromising correspondence.

The oil helped the paper to burn quickly; the smell, or perhaps the
presence of Juliette in the room caused worthy old Pétronelle to wake.

"It's nothing, Pétronelle," said Juliette quietly; "only a few old
letters I am burning. But I want to be alone for a few moments - will
you go down to the kitchen until I call you?"

Accustomed to do as her young mistress commanded, Pétronelle rose without
a word.

"I have finished putting away your few things, my jewel. There, there!
why didn't you tell me to burn your papers for you? You have soiled
your dear hands, and..."

"Sh! Sh! Pétronelle!" said Juliette impatiently, and gently pushing the
garrulous old woman towards the door. "Run to the kitchen now quickly,
and don't come out of it until I call you. And, Pétronelle," she added,
"you will see soldiers about the house perhaps."

"Soldiers! The good God have mercy!"

"Don't be frightened, Pétronelle. But they may ask you questions."

"Questions?"

"Yes; about me."

"My treasure, my jewel," exclaimed Pétronelle in alarm, "have those
devils...?"

"No, no; nothing has happened as yet, but, you know, in these times
there is always danger."

"Good God! Holy Mary! Mother of God!"

"Nothing 'll happen if you try to keep quite calm and do exactly as I
tell you. Go to the kitchen, and wait there until I call you. If the
soldiers come in and question you, if they try to frighten you,
remember that we have nothing to fear from men, and that our lives are
in God's keeping."

All the while that Juliette spoke, she was watching the heap of paper
being gradually reduced to ashes. She tried to fan the flames as best
she could, but some of the correspondence was on tough paper, and was
slow in being consumed. Pétronelle, tearful but obedient, prepared to
leave the room. She was overawed by her mistress' air of aloofness,
the pale face rendered ethereally beautiful by the sufferings she had
gone through. The eyes glowed large and magnetic, as if in presence of
spiritual visions beyond mortal ken; the golden hair looked like a
saintly halo above the white, immaculate young brow.

Pétronelle made the sign of the cross, as if she were in the presence of
a saint.

As she opened the door there was a sudden draught, and the last
flickering flame died out in the ash-pan. Juliette, seeing that
Pétronelle had gone, hastily turned over the few half burnt fragments of
paper that were left. In none of them had the writing remained
legible. All that was compromising to Déroulède was effectually reduced to
dust. The small wick in the lamp at the foot of the Virgin and Child
had burned itself out for want of oil; there was no means for Juliette
to strike another light and to destroy what remained. The leather case
was, of course, still there, with its sides ripped open, an
indestructible thing.

There was nothing to be done about that. Juliette after a second's
hesitation threw it among her dresses in the valise.

Then she too went out of the room.





CHAPTER XIV

A happy moment.


The search in the Citizen-Deputy's bedroom had proved as fruitless as
that in his study. Merlin was beginning to have vague doubts as to
whether he had been effectively fooled.

His manner towards Déroulède had undergone a change. He had become suave
and unctuous, a kind of elephantine irony pervading his laborious
attempts at conciliation. He and the Public Prosecutor would be
severely blamed for this day's work, if the popular Deputy, relying
upon the support of the people of Paris, chose to take his revenge.

In France, in this glorious year of the Revolution, there was but one
step between censure and indictment. And Merlin knew it. Therefore,
although he had not given up all hope of finding proofs of Déroulède's
treason, although by the latter's attitude he remained quite convinced
that such proof did exist, he was already reckoning upon the cat's paw,
the sop he would offer to that Cerberus, the Committee of Public
Safety, in exchange for his own exculpation in the matter.

This sop would be Juliette, the denunclator instead of Déroulède the
denounced.

But he was still seeking for the proofs.

Somewhat changing his tactics, he had allowed Déroulède to join his mother
in the living-room, and had betaken himself to the kitchen in search of
Anne Mie, whom he had previously caught sight of in the hall. There he
also found old Pétronelle, whom he could scare out of het wits to his
heart's content, but from whom he was quite unable to extract any
useful information. Pétronelle was too stupid to be dangerous, and Anne
Mie was too much on the alert.

But, with a vague idea that a cunning man might choose the most
inlikely places for the concealment of compromising property, he was
ransacking the kitchen from floor to ceiling.

In the living-room Déroulède was doing his best to reassure his mother,
who, in her turn, was forcing herself to be brave, and not to show by
her tears how deeply she feared for the safety of her son. As soon as
Déroulède had been freed from the presence of the soldiers, he had hastened
back to his study, only to find that Juliette had gone, and that the
letter-case had also disappeared. Not knowing what to think,
trembling for the safety of the woman he adored, he was just debating
whether he would seek for her in her own room, when she came towards
him across the landing.

There seemed a halo around her now. Déroulède felt that she had never been
so beautiful and to him so unattainable. Something told him then, that
at this moment she was as far away from him, as if she were an
inhabitant of another, more ethereal planet.

When she saw him coming towards her, she put a finger to her lips, and
whispered:

"Sh! sh! the papers are destroyed, burned."

"And I owe my safety to you!"

He had said it with his whole soul, an infinity of gratitude filled his
heart, a joy and pride in that she had cared for his safety.

But at his words she had grown paler than she was before. Her eyes,
large, dilated, and dark, were fixed upon him with an intensity of gaze
which almost startled him. He thought that she was about to faint,
that the emotions of the past half hour had been too much for her
overstrung nerves. He took her hand, and gently dragged her into the
living-room.

She sank into a chair, as if utterly weary and exhausted, and he,
forgetting his danger, forgetting the world and all else besides, knelt
at her feet, and held her hands in his.

She sat bolt upright, her great eyes still fixed upon him. At first it
seemed as if she could not be satiated with looking at her; he felt as
if he had never, never really seen her. She had been a dream of beauty
to him ever since that awful afternoon when he had held her, half
fainting, in his arms, and had dragged her under the shelter of his
roof.

From that hour he had worshipped her: she had cast over him the magic
spell of her refinement, her beauty, that aroma of youth and inocence
which makes such a strong appeal to the man of sentiment.

He had worshipped her and not tried to understand. He would have
deemed it almost sacrilege to pry into the mysteries of her inner self,
of that second nature in her which at times mad her silent, and almost
morose, and cast a lurid gloom over her young beauty.

And though his love for her had grown in intensity, it had remained as
heaven born as he deemed her to be - the love of a mortal for a saint,
the ecstatic adoration of a St Francis for his Madonna.

Sir Percy Blakeney had called Déroulède an idealist. He was that, in the
strictest sense, and Juliette had embodied all that was best in his
idealism.

It was for the first time to-day, that he had held her hand just for a
moment longer than mere conventionality allowed. The first kiss on her
finger-tips had sent the blood rushing wildly to his heart; but he
still worshipped her, and gazed upon her as upon a divinity.

She sat bolt upright in the chair, abandoning her small, cold hands to
his burning grasp.

His very senses ached with the longing to clasp her in his arms, to
draw her to him, and to feel her pulses beat closer against his. It
was almost torture now to gaze upon her beauty - that small, oval face,
almost like a child's, the large eyes which at times had seemed to be
blue but which now appeared to be a deep, unfathomable colour, like the
tempestuous sea.

"Juliette!' he murmured at last, as his soul went out to her in a
passionate appeal for the first kiss.

A shudder seemed to go through her entire frame, her very lips turned
white and cold, and he, not understanding, timorous, chivalrous and
humble, thought that she was repelled by his ardour and frightened by a
passion to which she was too pure to respond.

Nothing but that one word had been spoken - just her name, an appeal
from a strong man, overmastered at last by his boundless love - and
she, poor, stricken soul, who had so much loved, so deeply wronged him,
shuddered at the thought af what she might have done, had Fate not
helped her to save him.

Half ashamed of his passion, he bowed his dark head over her hands,
and, once more forcing himself to be calm now, he kissed her
finger-tips reverently.

When he looked up again the hard lines in her face had softened, and
two tears were slowly trickling down her pale cheeks.

"Will you forgive me, madonna?" he said gently. "I am only a man and
you are very beautiful. No - don't take your little hands away. I am
quite calm now, and know how one should speak to angels."

Reason, justice, rectitude - everything was urging Juliette to close
her ears to the words of love, spoken by the man whom she had betrayed.
But who shall blame her for listening to the sweetest sound the ears
of a woman can ever hear - the sound of the voice of the loved one in
his first declaration of love?

She sat and listened, whilst he whispered to her those soft, endearing
words, of which a strong man alone possesses the enchanting secret.

She sat and listened, whilst all around her was still. Madame Déroulède,
at the farther end of the room, was softly muttering a few prayers.

They were all alone these two in the mad and beautiful world, which man
has created for himself - the world of romance - that world more
wonderful than any heaven, where only those may enter who have learned
the sweet lesson of love. Déroulède roamed in it at will. He had created
his own romance, wherein he was as a humble worshipper, spending his
life in the service of his madonna.

Ans she too forgot the earth, forgot the reality, her oath, her crime
and its punishment, and began to think that it was good to live, good
to love, and good to have at her feet the one man in all the world whom
she could fondly worship.

Who shall tell what he whispered? Enough that she listened and that
she smiled; and he, seeing her smile, felt happy.





CHAPTER XV


Detected.


The opening and shutting of the door roused them both from their dreams.

Anne Mie, pale, trembling, with eyes looking wild and terrified, had
glided into the room.

Déroulède had sprung to his feet. In a moment he had thrust his own
happiness into the background at sight of the poor child's obvious
suffering. He went quickly towards her, and would have spoken to her,
but she run past him up to Madame Déroulède, as if she were beside herself
with some unexplainable terror.

"Anne Mie," he said firmly, "what is it? Have those devils dared..."

In a moment reality had come rushing back upon him with full force, and
bitter reproaches surged up in his heart against himself, for having in
this moment of selfish joy forgotten those who looked up to him for
help and protection.

He knew the temper of the brutes who had been set upon his track, knew
that low-minded Merlin and his noisome ways, and blamed himself
severely for having left Anne Mie and Pétronelle alone with him even for
a few moments.

But Anne Mie quickly reassured him.

"They have not molested us much," she said, speaking with a visible
effort and enforced calmness. "Pétronelle and I were together, and they
made us open all the cupboards and uncover all the dishes. They then
asked us many questions."

"Questions? Of what kind?" asked Déroulède.

"About you, Paul," replied Anne Mie, "and about maman, and also about -
about the citizeness, your guest."

Déroulède looked at her closely, vaguely wondering at the strange attitude
of the child. She was evidently labouring under some strong
excitement, and in her thin, brown little hand she was clutching a
piece of paper.

"Anne Mie! Child," he said very gently, "you seem quite upset - as if
something terrible had happened. What is that paper you are holding,
my dear?"

Anne Mie gazed down upon it. She was obviously making frantic efforts
to maintain her self-possession.

Juliette at first sight of Anne Mie seemed literally to have been
turned to stone. She sat upright, rigid as a statue, her eyes fixed
upon the poor, crippled girl as if upon an inexorable judge, about to
pronounce sentence upon her of life or death.

Instinct, that keen sense of coming danger which Nature sometimes gives
to her elect, had told her that, within the next few seconds, her doom
would be sealed; that Fate would descend upon her, holding the sword of
Nemesis; and it was Anne Mie's tiny, half-shrivelled hand which had
placed that sword into the grasp of Fate.

"What is that paper? Will you let me see it, Anne Mie?" repeated Déroulède.

"Citizen Merlin gave it to me just now," began Anne Mie more quietly;
"he seems very wroth at finding nothing compromising against you, Paul.
They were a long time in the kitchen, and now they have gone to search
my room and Pétronelle's; but Merlin - oh! that awful man! - he seemed
like a beast infuriated with his disappointment."

"Yes, yes."

"I don't know what he hoped to get out of me, for I told him that you
never spoke to your mother or to me about your political business, and
that I was not in the habit of listening at the keyholes."

"Yes. And..."

"Then he began to speak of - of our guest - but, of course, there again
I could tell him nothing. He seemed to be puzzled as to who had
denounced you. He spoke about an anonymous denunciation, which reached
the Public Prosecutor early this morning. It was written on a scrap of
paper, and thrown into the public box, it seems, and..."

"It is indeed very strange," said Déroulède, musing over this extraordinary
occurrence, and still more over Anne Mie's strange excitement in the
telling of it. "I never knew I had a hidden enemy. I wonder if I
shall ever find out..."

"That is just what I said to Citizen Merlin," rejoined Anne Mie.

"What?"

"That I wondered if you, or - or any of us who love you, will ever find
out who your hidden enemy might be."

"It was a mistake to talk so fully with such a brute, little one."

"I didn't say much, and I thought it wisest to humour him, as he seemed
to wish to talk on that subject."

"Well? And what did he say?"

"He laughed, and asked me if I would very much like to know."

"I hope you said No, Anne Mie?"

"Indeed, indeed, I said Yes," she retorted with sudden energy, her eyes
fixed now upon Juliette, who still sat rigid and silent, watching every
movement of Anne Mie from the moment in which she began to tell her
story.

"Would I not wish to know who is your enemy, Paul - the creature who
was base and treacherous enough to attempt to deliver you into the
hands of those merciless villains? What wrong had you done to anyone?"

"Sh! Hush, Anne Mie! you are too excited," he said, smiling now, in
spite of himself, at the young girl's vehemence over what he thought
was but a trifle - the discovery of his own enemy.

"I am sorry, Paul. How can I help being excited," rejoined Anne Mie
with quaint, pathetic gentleness, "when I speak of such base treachery,
as that which Merlin has suggested?"

"Well? And what did he suggest?"

"He did more than suggest," whispered Anne Mie almost inaudibly; "he
gave me this paper - the anonymous denunciation which reached the
Public Prosecutor this morning - he thought one of us might recognise
the handwriting."

Then she paused, some five steps away from Déroulède, holding out towards
him the crumpled paper, which up to now she had clutched determinedly
in her hand. Déroulède was about to take it from her, and just before he
had turned to do so, his eyes lighted on Juliette.

She said nothing, she had merely risen instinctively, and had reached
Anne Mie's side in less than the fraction of a second.

It was all a flash, and there was dead silence in the room, but in that
one-hundredth part of a second, Déroulède had read guilt in the face of
Juliette.

It was nothing but instinct, a sudden, awful, unexplainable revelation.
Her soul seemed suddenly to stand before him in all its misery and in
all its sin.

It was if the fire from heaven had descended in one terrific crash,
burying beneath its devastating flames his ideals, his happiness, and
his divinity. She was no longer there. His madonna had ceased to be.

There stood before him a beautiful woman, on whom he had lavished all
the pent-up treasures of his love, whom he had succoured, sheltered,
and protected, and who had repaid him thus.

She had forced an entry into his house; she had spied upon him, dogged
him, lied to him. The moment was too sudden, too awful for him to make
even a wild guess at her motives. His entire life, his whole past, the
present, and the future, were all blotted out in this awful dispersal
of his most cherished dream. He had forgotten everything else save her
appalling treachery; how could he even remember that once, long ago, in
fair fight, he had killed her brother?

She did not even try now to hide her guilt.

A look of appeal, touching in its trustfulness, went out to him,
begging him to spare her further shame. Perhaps she felt that love,
such as his, could not be killed in a flash.

His entire nature was full of pity, and to that pity she made a final
appeal, lest she should be humiliated before Madame Déroulède and Anne Mie.

And he, still under the spell of those magic moments when he had knelt
at her feet, understood her prayer, and closing his eyes just for one
brief moment in order to shut out for ever that radiant vision of a
pure angel whom he had worshipped, turned quietly to Anne Mie.

"Give me that paper, Anne Mie," he said coldly. "I may perhaps
recognise the handwriting of my most bitter enemy."

"'Tis unnecessary now," replied Anne Mie slowly, still gazing at the
face of Juliette, in which she too had read what she wished to read.

The paper dropped out of her hand.

Déroulède stooped to pick it up. He unfolded it, smoothed it out, and then
saw that it was blank.

"There is nothing written on this paper," he said mechanically.

"No," rejoined Anne Mie; "no other words save the story of her
treachery."

"What you have done is evil and wicked, Anne Mie."

"Perhaps so; but I had guessed the truth, and I wished to know. God
showed me this way, how to do it, and how to let you know as well."

"The less you speak of God just now, Anne Mie, the better, I think.
Will you attend to maman? she seems faint and ill."

Madame Déroulède, silent and placid in her arm-chair, had watched the
tragic scene before her, almost like a disinterested spectator. All
her ideas and all her thoughts had been paralysed, since the moment
when the first summons at the front door had warned her of the
imminence of the peril to her son.

The final discovery of Juliette's treachery had left her impassive.
Since her son was in danger, she cared little as to whence that danger
had come.

Obedient to Déroulède's wish, Anne Mie was attending to the old lady's
comforts. The poor, crippled girl was already feeling the terrible
reaction of her deed.

In her childish mind she had planned this way, in which to bring the
traitor to shame. Anne Mie knew nothing, cared nothing, about the
motives which had actuated Juliette; all she knew was that a terrible
Judas-like deed had been perpetrated against the man, on whom she
herself had lavished her pathetic, hopeless love.

All the pent-up jealousy which had tortured her for the past three
weeks rose up, and goaded her into unmasking her rival.

Never for a moment did she doubt Juliette's guilt. The god of love may
be blind, tradition has so decreed it, but the demon of jealousy has a
hundred eyes, more keen than those of the lynx.

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